Friday, December 18, 2009
All I want for Christmas is......
On a lighter note I signed up to start training for the Country Music Marathon! The Marathon is at the end of April (which if I stay on track should be when I reach my weight goal). I never in my life thought I would participate in a marathon but this group is special it is called Hooping for Hope and the group will Hula Hoop the 1/2 marathon to raise money for the Hooping for Hope a charity that provides fitness classes for breast cancer survivors. I personally love hula hooping and can't wait to get started on my training!!!
Monday, December 14, 2009
There's a light at the end of the tunnel....
I had a holiday party/housewarming this weekend and that was great! I got to see all my friends and family and got to show off my new house. I did really well considering there was a ton of food around my house, I am trying to give it all away now so the temptation leaves, but so far I am doing good!
I am having an issue with not being able to eat in the morning with out getting sick. Also I have been eating to fast and making myself sick. So I am working on those things because clumping is a horrible feeling and the dry heaves that comes with it is painful!
I am defiantly on an up swing now and looking forward to the rest of the holidays!!
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Dark Days
It seems that every little thing pisses me off right now, I really hope I can get over this soon because I hate feeling like this. But somethings I have no control over. If I am not angry I am crying, I can't seem to get myself together enough to get through the days. I go home and don't want to leave so I don't get anything done and then I just sit there knowing I could be working around the house and nothing sounds good enough for me to get up to do.
I am just feeling really alone and not motivated. I hope I can pull myself out of this depression cause it sucks being sad and angry all the time.
Also I am not loosing any weight right now and I know it has to do with my depression but also doesn't help with my depression (it's a double edged sword).
Monday, November 30, 2009
Thanksgiving
I was very surprised that I wasn't tempted to eat a bunch of junk. I credit alot of that to my taste buds being a little off still. Things don't taste the same anymore. I was certain that the food I had made for the holiday was horrible and nobody would eat it but on the contrary everyone said it was the best they had tasted! If it was up to me I would have thrown it all away because when I tasted it, it was gross!
All and all it was a good holiday and now I know Christmas will be a breeze!
Friday, November 20, 2009
Solid FOOD!!!
I tried to take my dog for a walk the other day but it did not go well, he was pulling to much. So I am walking alot just have to leave the doggie at home for now. I am starting a more in depth work out next week, so I will let you know how that goes! I am gonna start slow with some swimming (I love swimming).
So far I have lost 25.5 inches! I m so glad I am loosing slow, it is helping my skin keep up :-) So far no saggy skin!!!! WOOHOO!!!
I am looking forward to next week and Thanksgiving! I have already planned out my dinner and am looking forward to some yummy turkey!
I want you all to keep my friend Kim in your thoughts and prayers, she is having her WLS the Monday after Thanksgiving. Pretty soon she will be apart of our LOOSER'S club, YAY!!! So here's to Kim can't wait for you to join us, hope your excited! I'm excited for you.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
One Month Anniversary!!!!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Clumping
This happened to me for the first time last night! It was horrible! But I felt much better after I purged the food from my body. I think my problem was I ate too fast. So after that I was back to liquids only for the rest of the day to let my tummy have a rest.
Clumping was too bad but it is not something I wan to happen again, I HATE throwing up!!!!
But today is a new day and I paying better attention when I eat so I can prevent having clumping happen again!
It's been awhile
My incision sites are all healed up and now I am just treating them with some special cream to help them not scar.
As of today I have lost 40 pounds!!!!!!!!
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Loosing like crazy
I am still in shock that it has been three weeks since I have had a soda! I don't think I have gone this long with out one since I started drinking them when I was child! I have never been able to quite them but now I am proudly 3 weeks cold turkey into my no soda life. I will never be able to have soda's again, the carbonation's is very bad for the tummy and I hear it is very painful. I try to stay away from things that I have been warned are painful :-)
So as of starting week 3 I am doing great and only minor aches and pains nothing I can't handle.
It is also exciting that I am down 5 points on the BMI scale!!!!!!
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Better days ahead!
I am looking forward to Monday when I get to start eating pureed foods! I really wish I could have pudding, but that is not on the menu yet :-) I am also excited that Phase 3 of my diet starts right before Thanksgiving! I can't wait to have some home made turkey, sad I know but it gets me through.
I realize it has almost been 2 weeks since I have had any solid food!!!! That is just amazing to me especially because I have not been hungry or really missing eating. I guess that is the point, I think my life change is on the right track! I am excited to get to start working out soon too! I have been researching different workouts that look fun. As soon as my incisions heal I am gonna start Hula Hooping again, YAY!!!!!
So as of right now I am doing good and getting my liquids in today hopefully I will finish out the day well and be able to start counting incident free days :-)
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Bad Days.... I'm having 'Em!
Monday, October 19, 2009
Back to work
I am back to work today, and so far so good! I know I am only one hour into the day but I am sure I will be fine to do a whole shift. This is good cause we where all expecting me to out for at least two weeks.
Not much to report, just trying to in al my fluids :-) It really is harder than it sounds (especially when you can't chug the yucky tasting stuff :-P)
I went to a BBQ yesterday and I wasn't tempted one bit to eat! I was surprised cause the food smelled good but I had no desire to eat it. So I that as a god sign!
Guess I better get back to work!
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Day four after surgery...
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Day two at home.
I think I am almost ready to go back to work, it is pretty boring just sitting around the house all day. I think I will go back on Monday and test it out see how it goes. I only work 4 hours a day at the office so I think I can handle it.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I'm out of the hospital!
I got strict instructions on what I need to, so now I am home taking my meds and drinking my 64 oz of fluids. So now I am doing all my fun ankle pumps and breathing exercises to make sure I stay healthy and not go back to the hospital!
I will post more later I am a bit tired right now it was a long drive home, but I did want to let everyone I am doing well and made it home safe and sound!!!!
THank you for all of your thoughts and prayers they really helped me thought the 2 hard days I had!!
Much Love,
Zee
Friday, October 9, 2009
T-Minus 2 Days!!!
I will keep you all posted on my surgery and post-op :-)
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Last Pre-Op Appointment
The morning started out at 8am with an educational class that covered the rest of the pre-op prep and also went over the post-op diet. It was a ton of information but thankfully they give you a CD that has all of the information on it plus alot more!
After the 3 hour class I met with the trainer, he gave me some exercise to start doing. They are nothing strenuous just simple ankle rotation's and shoulder shrugs. They do not seem like much but they are very important! They help keep the blood circulating which is key to preventing blood clots that can be fatal!
Then I went on to see the Nurse Practitioner. She did final paper work and gave me what I needed to go on to the hospital and have my final labs done.
So off to the hospital I go it is now a little after 1pm! I got the hospital with only slight detours (I am horrible with directions). So what did I do there you ask? I pre-registered for surgery so we got all the paper work filled out and then they took me back to have blood drawn (YUCK). I got to answer more questions (they started to repeat, it was kinda annoying) and have (what I think was a gallon) blood taken to do final tests to make sure I am healthy and ready to go under! Finally after meeting with the anesthesiologist and getting a tour of a room I will be calling home for my 3 day stay I got to start heading home at 4pm! All in all it was painless (except for the vampire lady that drained my blood) it just was a long day and seemed even longer when I had to drive 3 hours to get home.
Now I am all ready for surgery! All I have to do is wait for Oct. 12th and try not to gain any weight (which won't be hard). I do have some meds I have to take before surgery but those are preventive medications and won't have any effect on my routine.
Friday, September 25, 2009
The Psychology of it
Right now I am mentally preparing for surgery and the more I think about it the more I discover new aspects of my life that this procedure is going to change. Aside from the physical and health changes I am going to through, I am also gaining self confidence and courage. I am really looking forward to the possibility of being able to discontinue all of my medications too!!!
As for courage, I have had small specs of courage come out already. I have been being a bit bold this week. Self confidence is peeking it's gorgeous head in my life lately too. I have been making lists of things I want to do when I am finally healthy and able bodied. Like what you ask... Like entering a dance contest, participating in a marathon and about a million more adventures I have always wanted to do but have been putting off because I am not confident enough to do.
Now more of my genuine personality has started coming to the service. I have had up a defensive wall up and have been a not so nice person at times all due my insecurities because of my weight. But anyone who really gets to know me knows that I am nice, kind, happy person and more of that side of me has been evident the past month.
It is amazing, I haven't even had the surgery yet or even lost very much weight but something in my brain just knows that I am on my way to it and has already started changing to adapt to the new me!!!
Don't get me wrong I do not think WLS is going to cure all of my problems but I do believe it is the first step in the right direction!
Well I think that will be all my rambling for right now. Look for more to come soon!
17 days till surgery WOOHOO, I am getting supper excited!!!!
Hugs,
Zee
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Insomnia
I am still debating who really needs to know I am doing this. I mean well I am sharing it with everyone who has the internet but that isn't the hard part. If you found this blog you where looking to know more about WLS. I just don't know if I feel like going through the process of telling everyone and them asking me 101 questions. When this all began I was gung-ho about telling everyone in my life, I had made up my mind and that was that! But unfortunately I had a couple bad responses to the news that set me back. Don't get me wrong they did not change my mind for one second about what I was doing but they did make me not want to tell anyone else. It took to much strength to stand up for my decision I felt that maybe it would have been better not telling anyone at all. So now that I have told My best friend and my family I am not sure I want to tell any one else. I am sick and tired of being judged for doing what is best for me.
On the other hand what if something does happen to me and I don't make it through surgery? I know how I have felt when I have lost friends suddenly. There is one friend in-particular that I still think about and miss every day and when you loose someone young so quick it is hard and you wish you would have been able to say goodbye. So now the questions is do I tell everyone incase something happens so they will have closure?
So many options so little time to decide. Maybe a letter will be good enough. But how do you write that kind of letter? I can imagine the start "If you are reading this I didn't live through surgery...." that is some heavy stuff right there! Not sure I could produce one of those at this point.
All of this runs through my mind when I lay down to sleep and I can't get it to go away, so that is what brings me to writing at 1:45 in the morning when I should be cuddled up dreaming.
Oh and don't forget I have to make out a 'Living Will' (I know the fun keeps on coming tonight!) I am a fairly smart girl but when it comes to things like that I might as well be a 2 year old. I don't know what to do, it over whelm's me, I just want someone else to make that decision for me! But I know I am 28 years old and have to make that decision on my own, no matter how hard it is. So this brings me to the faith issue. Am I ready to meet my maker? What do I really believe in? Should I be kept on life support? and if so how long and under what circumstances? What happens if I don't do a 'Living Will'? I think that might be kinda selfish to put that decision on my parents but who knows maybe they would make a better choice than me! Lord knows I have not had the best judgement so far in my life.
Wow this is turning into a novel, LOL, and these are just my pre-op worries! I will need a ton more space for my post-op concerns! I guess after wake up alive in the recovery room I will start writing the post-op issues, haha, I sure do hope I wake up alive!!! Not sure I could handle another death of a close friend (hardy har har). My best friend told me "You better not die on me or I will go to TN and kick your dead ass!" can you feel the love :-) I told her I would haunt her if I died, I always like to have the last laugh, hehehe.
I think it is time for me to try and get some rest again I have to be up for work in 3 hours, UGH, work is not going to be fun today! Thanks for letting me babble (like you had a choice) and feel free to offer up any advice, but be nice I am already teetering on the edge of insanity!
Much Love,
Zee
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Embarrassing my doctor :-)
Everybody stand clear!
Let's shout, let's cheer!
Our victory is near!
Weight Loss, Weight Loss!
That's our name; we are the best!
Monday, September 14, 2009
Insurance for the Un-Insured!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
The Date is Set!!!!!!!
Friday, August 7, 2009
The Diet, it's totally do-able!
STARCHES
Dry Cereal, Cooked Pasta, Diet Bread, Cooked Rice, Regular Bread, Bagel, Baked Potato, Roll, Saltine Crackers, Melba Toast, Pretzels
FRUIT
Apple, Orange, Peach, Apricots, Banana, Prunes, Cherries, Grapes, Strawberries, Grapefruit, Melon
VEGETABLES
Asparagus, Cucumber, Radish, Green Beans, Spinach, Broccoli, Lettuce, Mushrooms, Cabbage, Okra, Tomato, Carrots, Onions, Turnips, Cauliflower, Peppers, Zucchini
DAIRY
Skim Milk, 1% Milk, Low-fat Buttermilk, Reduced-fat Yogurt
MEAT
Turkey Breast, Veal, Chicken Breast, Center Cut Pork, Low-fat Lunch Meat, Canadian Bacon, Lean Beef: round, sirloin, tenderloin, roast, ground round, t-bone, Seafood: cod, flounder, trout, halibut, tuna in water, salmon, oysters, Cottage Cheese, Medium Egg, Egg Substitute, Low-fat Cheese
FATS
Margarine, Low-fat Dressing, Mayonnaise, Peanut Butter, Reduced-fat Mayo, Oil – Canola, Olive Oil
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So that is the skinny on my diet, each Doctor will have his own dietitian and diet to follow so diets may vary but this is mine and a good example of what you can expect.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
So Close......
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Feeling Good
No date set yet, I am still saving my "Wompums" (as Dr. John would say) HAHA.
Here is a picture of my wonderful doctor, Dr. Boyce, so you all can put a face with a voice
and if you decide to have your surgery in Knoxville he can be your doctor too :-)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Update
Friday, May 29, 2009
Weight Loss Surgery Questionaire
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For Driver’s who are truly interested in Weight Loss Surgery? Call, email or Fax the below information to Dr John’s Trucker’s On Call Center. Dr John will talk to each driver personally. See Trucker’s ON Call Center contact information at the bottom.
- Name:
- Age:
- Sex: M F
- Height: 0'0" Weight:000 pounds BMI:
- Employer:
- Do you have Insurance?
- If yes does it cover weight loss surgery?
- Call back phone #:
- Number of years obese:
- List of diets tried including medically supervised attempts:
- Medication list and dosage:
- List of previous surgical procedures and year of the procedure:
- Do you have any of the following, answer with yes or no:
-High Blood Pressure
-Diabetes
-Sleep Apnea
-Indigestion (GERDS) requiring medication or over the counter medication
-Cholesterol elevations
-Muscle or arthritis problems, Back pain/surgery
-Lung problems or Pulmonary Hypertension, Heart Disease/Angina, heart failure, COPD
-Previous Cancer Treatment, Gout
-Metabolic Syndrome (Circle if you have HBP, Diabetes, Cholesterol, a BMI over 40)
-Liver Disease. For example Hepatitis, Cirrhosis.
-Female drivers only: Polycystic Ovaries, Menstrual Irregularities - Alcohol consumption:
- Tobacco history:
- Reason you are interested in weight loss surgery?
Fax or call 8am- 5pm M-F EST
Phone: 865-862-8902
Fax: 865-558-9551
Email any time: jmcelligott@ohswest.com
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Recovery Time
As for me I have chosen to have the 'Sleeve' done, which will be done laparoscopicly (laparoscopic surgery has a shorter recovery time) my down time will be anywhere from 2-4 weeks. The good news is they do not want you to lay in bed you will be up and moving around right after surgery, so you won't be bed ridden you just can do strenuous activities, like work. Personally I do not have a physical job but I do have strenuous chores at home, like walking my giant dog, so I will need help around the house for about a month to make sure I heal properly.
Pre-Op Diet
So far I am doing rather well with the diet, I will admit I have had some slip ups but I am only human, plus my birthday was last week so I gave in and had cake :-)
Just a Reminder
UGH decisions decisions!!!
Now I am getting closer to surgery with every tick of the clock, I haven’t set a date yet for surgery but just knowing it is in the near future gets me SO excited!!!! Finally I will have the tool I need to drop this weight once and for all and to be a healthy person I deserve to be!
Next step……… SETTING A SURGERY DATE!!!!!!
Next stop, the Consultation
Yay tests! And the hard kind I didn’t even have to study for these ones. First thing is first we get to find out what my BMI is, the way BMI is calculated by using your height and weight then the fancy machine pops up this magical percentage (well not exactly but the height and weight part is true but the rest is determined by some math equation I don’t know or understand I assume). So as of May 13, 2009 I am 5’9” (which I am excited about because that means I grew and inch) and I weigh 300 pounds so that means I have a BMI of 44%. According to Mimi (that’s what I named the machine that calculated all this) I should weigh 143 pounds, which mean I am carrying around more than double my ideal weight that is 156 extra pounds I am lugging around everyday! So that was the standing there test (yes I renamed them all) next I get to do the breath into the bag test that one was super easy too, and they gave me this yummy lemonade to drink, at least I thought it was yummy since I was starving since I couldn’t eat before the appointment so I could get all these fun tests done.
After doing the ‘Breath into the bag’ test I got to talk with Dr. Boyce we went over my options and we talked about what my goals are and which procedures would do me the most good. And then I had to do the worst test of the day I had to put a close pin like contraption on my nose and breath into a tube for ten minutes!!! I know it sounds silly but really I was not liking my nose being pinch and breathing through a tube and it is hurts your jaw to keep it open that long.
But the good news is after all my suffering all my tests came back normal so I am now ready to rock and roll!!! I did need blood work done also but I had that done a couple weeks before at a lab in Nashville so I just brought the results with me.
Now I get to go home and make the final decision on what procedure I want to have done, YIKES another major decision!!!
Ok! Went to a rocking seminar and know I have found my doctor what’s next?
This is where I can offer no advice; my insurance does not cover my surgery. Some of you will more than likely run into this situation and unfortunately those of us with out insurance coverage don’t have many options. In my case I am having to pay out-of-pocket which is a bit of a bummer but on the plus side I don’t have to wait for the slow poke insurance people to set my surgery date, HAHAHA, see there is a silver lining to every cloud!
My suggestion to those of you with insurance is to look at your policy and it should let you know if weight loss surgery is covered. There be some exceptions but everyone’s insurance is different so it is best to either look it up or call and ask your agent what is covered.
And that's all the advice I can offer in this area :-)
My next hard Decision
Now for a bit about how I found a surgeon and things that you should look for:
I had no idea where to start so I used good old Google to help me locate a local surgeon’s here in Nashville. After calling several doctor’s office’s I found out that they hold informational seminar’s to explain more about the procedures and so you can ask the surgeon’s question’s they also give you a packet of information and paper work to fill out just incase you decide to carry on. I went a couple here in Nashville and learned a lot. I knew the surgery was right for me and I knew which procedure I wanted to have done I just hadn’t found the doctor that I wanted to work with. My search continued for several more months until one day while at work we had this awesome guest on the show for “Coffee with the Doc” (you guessed it, it was Dr. Boyce) we talked a bit after the show (as much time is aloud in my busy day like 3 minutes, haha) and then I called back and talked to some of the great people that work in his office.
After talking to Dr. Boyce and his staff I decided that maybe it was time to look outside of Nashville for a surgeon I feel comfortable with. So I made the trip to Knoxville to see what they had to offer me.
I could tell from the moment I walked in the seminar that this team was different and that I was on the right track. The seminar they conducted was not like any other one I had been to, it was a million times better. I walked out of the seminar with a sense of security in knowing that this team really cared about me and my success. I was really excited to get the ball rolling and meet with Dr. Boyce for my consultation!!
Here are few tips for choosing your weight loss medical team:
- Bariatric Surgery Center of Excellence
- That there is a support team, you are not just choosing a surgeon you are choosing the whole team- Nurses, dietitian, exercise trainer- a good team is very important because they will be your support system before and after surgery they are a key to your weight loss success.
- Support groups are also very important here is a link to a support group- Knoxville Weight Loss Surgery Support Group
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
What next?
I started with a basic Internet search (but you need to be careful there is a ton of miss information out there!) I spent 6 months close to obsessed with finding out every detail of every option I had available to me in the whole world!!!!
-100 pounds or more of excess weight; or a BMI of 40 or greater
(Excess weight is the difference between the patient’s actual weight and a healthy weight.)
-A BMI of 35 or greater with one or more co-morbid conditions
Some common Co-Morbid conditions:
* Type 2 diabetes
* Heart disease,
* High blood pressure
* High cholesterol
* Obstructive sleep apnea
* Acid reflux/GERD,
* Cancer
* Depression
* Osteoarthritis and joint pain
* Stress urinary incontinence
* Female reproductive health disorder
If you have any questions or think Weight Loss Surgery is right for you call The Dr John Truckers On Call Center at 865-862-8902 tell them you want to talk about WLS with Dr John!!
The start....
"I knew I was a bit over weight but I never saw myself as OBESE much less morbidly obese. Looking in the mirror today I finally see it, "Wow, when did it get so bad?" I ask myself almost in disbelief that this is happening to me. But it didn't happen over night this has been happening for more than half of my life, today is the day I realize I need help. I never thought I would be 304 pounds!!!! That is more than double the average weight for my height. So now that I know I need help it is time to decide what kind of help is going to be best for me.........."
The above insert is how I felt 2 years ago, I am writing you today to share my journey and hopefully help some of you who don't know where to start or even if Weight Loss Surgery (WLS) is right for you. My goal is share every detail of my journey and describe every step along my way of WLS and hopefully help others that are in the same situation.